Back again – an update

Wow, it’s been nearly one year since I last came here. One year since my world shattered a little, with the possible PD diagnosis

I have had my moments of complete despair. But to be honest, I got over it.

So instead of making this blog about a possible PD diagnosis and my feelings towards it, I am going to carry on with my fitness/weight loss team, because I am still pursuing  these things. Of course it does not mean that I don’t struggle with my physical limitations (sometimes). I do. But it kinda gives me more drive to do something I struggle with.

With that said… an update!

Well what happened since June last year? A lot.

I think the two main things are: I have stopped running and I am eating a paleo diet now.

The stopped running part happened quite casually, my running buddy hurt her knee and we stopped. We never started again. Sad, but true.

The paleo diet started with a sugar detox. After a lot of soul searching, I decided to do a sugar detox – because let’s face it, sugar is my downfall. I love sugar. Cakes, chocolate, pastries, biscuits, you name it. My biggest struggle (and I think it will be a life time struggle) is moderation when it comes to sweets. I cannot do ‘one bite’. It’s almost like that one bite triggers a monster that lives inside my brain and I CANNOT STOP after I start. I got tired of feeling like a failure, after a whole week of ‘being good’, the weekend would come. The kids have Friday treats, so I would obviously get a treat for myself too, but I would not stop there, it would carry on all weekend.

So I decided that something drastic needed to be done, and I know I am a sugar addict. So I thought it would be ‘fun’ to cut sugar out of my diet.

The first thing we did as a family was to clear out the pantry. That meant everything that was processed or had ‘sugar’ as one of the ingredients. We got rid of 98% of our food, that was so shocking to me. After examining a few labels, I came across one of those muesli bars that are lunchbox friendly (I was feeding it to my kids every day). I kid you not, it had 33 ingredients listed in the ingredient list, I did not know what most of them even were. I could not believe that was what we call ‘food’ It made me realise how far we are from what we are from what we are meant to eat. I don’t know how things started to get so bad. If you think about it, you could barely find overweight people 100 years ago.  Now, you don’t have to look far. You would think that with all ‘low fat’ foods available these days, people would lose weight?

That’s mainly what struck me and convince me to go paleo. When I cut all the sugar from my diet, I had to eat clean. I had no choice. So things like bread and pasta also went out of the window.

People that are the other side of the fence (non-paleo eaters) cannot imagine a life without pasta, and think it’s so hard to follow this way of eating, but let me tell you a secret, it’s not that hard. Sure, the first week is hard, a mental shift is happening. What is hard? Feeling so tired all the time, having no energy, or even worse, feeling sick all the time! For so long we were told that fat is bad for you, grains are good for you, blahblah, when you start to challenge those beliefs, people (yourself included) are automatically sceptical and defensive and some people don’t get it. No one wants to hear that their ‘healthy’ diet is actually not that healthy. You spend so long trying all these things, eating all your grains, the low fat products. In your head, you think you are doing everything right, but think about it: Why are people so overweight these days? The low-fat eaters. Some people run and run and are still overweight. Some people cannot lose weight at all, no matter what they do. It hyas got to make you think!! I could go on and on and on. If you are not convinced and need to do is a little bit of reading, I recommend and

Cutting sugar was not easy, because we are surrounded by it. It is so hard to go grocery shopping, read labels and find out that you cannot buy curry paste, it has added sugar in it. Bummer. You start to get creative (thank you to Pinterest) Having no sugar gets easier as time goes by. It’s tough at the beginning, not going to lie, but if I can do it, anyone can, and I mean it. It takes a little bit of planning and a little bit of purpose and stubbornness but it’s possible, believe me. If you want more info, you can write to me. I am happy to share info and tips.

So after the sugar detox, I noticed a huge difference in myself. No heart burn. I didn’t get tired in the middle of the afternoon. I slept really well and woke up feeling refreshed. And I lost 4kgs in 3 weeks. My husband’s dandruff disappeared, my daughter’s acne improved noticeably. It is hard to ignore the benefits. And it’s even harder to go back to old ways when you learn so much about what you are actually feeding your body.

So that’s how I started. While sugar detoxing, you are eating a paleo diet already (minus the fruit and you are also allowed some dairy products), so the transition to paleo is not a difficult one.

It’s been nearly one year, I have lost 10kgs since starting. I haven’t counted one calorie, I haven’t felt deprived and I do not feel like I am in a diet. The sugar detox gave me freedom from food slavery, the paleo diet keeps me in check. I am not gonna sit here and pretend I am perfect the whole time, because I am not, far from it. Sometimes, when I allow myself a treat, it triggers my ‘monster’ side, and it takes me a while to get back to the wagon. I am not talking about months, it usually just takes a couple of days. But that’s just me, I found that I need to be strict with myself, but some people follow a 80/20 rule when going paleo. Which is great, because life happens.

On the fitness side of things, I have started weight lifting, doing some strength training instead of concentrating in cardio exercises. I have notices that my body shape has changed a lot since I started to lift. And I love the feeling of empowerment lifting gives me! I also engaged a person al trainer (that only happened 3 weeks ago) since my husband is working evenings and I cannot get to the gym after work like I used to. I am having 5.30am sessions with the PT. Which is good and bad. Good, because I cannot get out of it. I know she is waiting for me at the gym and I cannot stand her up. Bad because getting up at 5am is not fun. Especially now that it is winter here.

Like I mentioned before, I am not running anymore but I want to get back into it. I forgot how hard it is to self-motivate. I know it’s something I need to do to get things moving again. Running gives me the feeling that I can accomplish anything! It reminds me that my body responds so well to it, I am curious about how efficient my running body will become now that I am feeding it properly



I am finally back!

I know things have been way too slow here lately. I think it’s part of the process, isn’t it? We all have ups and downs in life, and well, I have been down lately. Not anything in particular happened to make me go off the rails, but I just did. Actually, not completely, because the whole time I was binging and eating crap and not exercising, I knew what I was doing and did it anyway. So the conscience is still there – which is a good thing, that little voice that keeps pulling you up to start again and again.

It’s a learning process. We make mistakes, deal with life in different ways, we slip up and eat crap. But we can always learn from our mistakes and get up, shake the dust off ourselves and try again. It’s not about being perfect, it’s about NOT GIVING UP!

So that’s what I did, yet AGAIN. I do think my mojo is back for good, finally.

It’s winter time here, cold and wet. I bought myself a coupon for my local gym, for one month unlimited access, plus a Personal Trainer session for $20! All group fitness classes, plus go any time I want. I was really impressed with the facilities, I started last week – went three times. This week started with a bam, a Body Pump class last night. Yes, I am walking like a robot, my muscles are sore – it’s all self-inflicted and I love it.

And after a whole month without running, I was also able to run. On a treadmill. And I didn’t fall! Bonus! So I actually ran 5kms non stop for the first time ever. I am finding it easier to run on a treadmill than on the road, is this normal? I never ran on treadmills before, and I was surprised. Is it just me?

Anyway, I am happy to be back. I was sick and tired of feeling guilty for not doing what I knew was good for me – and I already feel so much better for it

Feeling the Pressure (Long whine ahead)

As you probably realised lately, I am not in a good head space when it comes to weight loss

But the thing is, I am thinking about it constantly. I follow many people (Facebook, Instagram etc.)that are doing great and getting great results. They usually have more resources (read: money) than me, and seeing them getting results leads me to really feel the pressure and consequently, feel like a failure when things don’t happen the way I want them to.

Now I can hear you say: ‘Don’t compare yourself to others’ and I am not, I really am not. But that doesn’t stop the voices in my head just telling me constantly that I am failing at this, even know I know I am not failing, I am just not going forward. I was doing so well and all of a sudden I don’t seem to be able to take control for some unknown reason. I start every day with a positive attitude, but something always happens and my plans go out of the window.

Sometimes  it’s a second helping of food, or sometimes I think I am eating too many carbs (which is ridiculous because I am not even following a low carb plan). Sometimes I cannot go out and exercise – this one really throws me off! I am so time limited, I work full time, have NO MONEY to join a gym or get a personal trainer (even though I would love a PT, just saying), I have no equipment at home. I am still running, but maybe twice a week because something is always on and I can feel it is getting harder to run and I have not improved at all. I never see my kids as it is, and if I go out in the evening to exercise, I see them even less. It’s close to winter time here, so it’s dark first thing in the morning and it is getting dark by 6pm in the evening. I would never go and run by myself in the dark, call me over-cautious, but I am not taking any risks there.

All I feel is pressure! From my own self. I feel like I need to do this or that, and if I don’t, it is a big FAIL for the whole day.

I am scared to revert to old habits, to get to the point of not caring anymore. I know I have to concentrate on how far I have come already but sometimes it is just hard to do that. All I can see is what I am not doing.

Who knows, maybe these are just internal excuses – to excuse and alleviate my own behaviour?

Maybe I just need to find what works for me so I don’t feel like I am failing all the time?

Maybe I just have to accept that I am indeed a failure and this is never gonna happen for me?

Plateau – how do I break it?

I have been faithfully eating clean and exercising. The same damn kilo keeps going and coming back, and have been for the last two months! What am I doing wrong?

It is pretty discouraging. It is also hard not to compare myself to others, there are tons of awesome people out there on the same journey, and I can’t help to feel a little bit jealous of their progress when they share their loss for the week. I am happy for them, honestly am. I just don’t like what I see on the scales. Damn scales.

So how am I going to measure my progress when the scales are not moving down? How do you break a very stubborn plateau?

To keep doing what I am doing is obviously not breaking it, my body is quite comfy at the moment or so it seems. Do I eat less? More? Do I exercise less? More?


ALMOST tempted


(I said no to those today. The fat girl in me was disappointed. I am learning to silence her a little bit more everyday. It was a very happy moment)

Temptation is a funny thing. To give in to temptation, it requires a process of fighting with yourself about what you should do versus what you want to do.

I am not singularly talking about food – but since this is weight loss blog, I am focusing on that.

I work with a lady, and for the last three weeks, she lost 7kgs. The little green jealous monster that lives inside me poked its head out for a moment, to find out what was going on.

I asked her what she was doing, and she told me she had started the diet and told me the name of it. I was interested and almost tempted to stop what I am doing and follow her advice, giving all the great results she is having. I won’t say which diet it is because I am not here to judge anyone doing that diet. But I googled it and I was not surprised to find out why she is losing so much weight so quickly. Basically, she is eating 500 calories a day.

So, no thanks! I love food, want to eat plenty of it and lose weight. It’s all about choices.

You see, many people are so desperate to lose weight that they do not think about choices, either good or bad choices. It is obviously not healthy to only eat 500 calories per day. There are many side effects to this diet, you lose weight, yes – but you also become a super tired cranky unpleasant (and hungry) individual. I can confirm first hand that that is the case. They also think that perhaps taking a pill will help. What they fail to realise is that, in the long term, these things are just not sustainable.

I will confess that once or twice I was that desperate myself. I haven’t done anything extreme but sometimes I wished that a magic pill did exist! I was tempted to take pills and go through extreme dieting. I think all of us, at some point wished that.

But reality is, healthy is exactly the opposite of any of those fad diets or pills.

So if you ever feel tempted to start an extreme diet or taking a pill, please don’t! Keep doing what you are doing already, eat clean, healthy food, drink plenty of water and move your butt! It takes time, patience and consistency.

This is the secret!

Do not give up because it is taking too long. You will get there and in the long term, your body will thank you for it

PS. To the grammar nazis out there, I write in Australian English, which means words like ‘realise’ are spelled with an ‘s’ not a ‘z’ 🙂

Motivated and ready to go

I can finally say that my motivation is back, after a long holiday.

I never really stopped what I was doing – apart from when I went to New Zealand for three weeks over Christmas and New Year, as much as I tried to be health conscious, after the third day it all went out of the window, too many barbeques invitations and yummy dessert!

I got back home on January 4th, and let me tell you, I have been in Struggleville since.

But you know what? Since coming back, I never gave up. After falling off the wagon, I climbed it back on straight away. I never stopped running, even though I was only running twice and maybe three times a week. I pushed myself through the lack of motivation.

Motivation is a tricky thing, you know. I quote Michelle Bridges when I say ‘Motivation is like a bad boyfriend, is never there when you need it!’ This is so true. If I ever rely on my motivation to take me places, forget about it. I do not wake up everyday feeling energized and ready to smash it. Some days I feel like I HAVE to eat chocolate, some days I am way too tired so I don’t really feel like running. You just have to push through it, not even start thinking about the reasons why you have the excuse not to exercise, or you had a rough day so you ‘deserve’ chocolate.

But I know when you are actually motivated, things do become easier.

What I do to get motivated/excited?

  • Read blogs/articles that give me inspiration. We live in an era when things are so easy, you can easily create a circle of things to keep you motivated. There are thousands of awesome ladies out there in the same journey, a lot of awesome success stories (I love those!) There are normal people, just like you and me and they have a lot to offer when it comes to support and motivation!
  • Join My Fitness Pal or Sparkpeople . I use both for different reasons. I like the food tracker better at My Fitness Pal but Sparkpeople has a lot of awesome resources to keep you going!
  • Look for tasty food that you love, it will keep you interested in what you are eating, so you dont feel like you are depriving yourself. Or if you are like me, lacking time for really elaborate meals, simple meals are always good.
  • Find an exercise buddy. Sometimes my friend being there is the only thing that keeps me going while running
  • Don’t give up! If you are having a bad day, too tired to work out, think about where you want to get. Get back on the wagon straight away and don’t beat yourself up for falling off it. I can guarantee you that 99% of people out there who lost weight, didn’t have it perfect all the time!

Motivation comes and goes. The secret to weight loss is CONSISTENCY, whether you feel like it or not

I hope you find this helpful