Well, it’s Tuesday again – it means the weekend has come and gone and I am AGAIN trying to recover from it. You see, weekends are very hard for me, I struggle to keep track of my eating, and I don’t exercise, usually, because we get out and about and time flies when you are having fun.
This weekend in particular was hectic. My husband auditioned for the X-Factor program (I have mixed feelings about it) and he got through to the second audition – but he won’t find out what the outcome is until April. Reality TV is not reality really, this audition thing is a four part process – it makes you wonder how those really bad singers get on TV?
After he was back, we went swimming, and got invited for a dinner bbq – which was good until dessert came. I had some. It was Ambrosia, one of my favourites!
On Sunday though, we all went to a Brazilian restaurant (I am Brazilian, my siblings live here and my parents are here in Australia visiting). That place is a diet killer. All you can eat Brazilian barbeque for $50 (cheap for Perth standards). And the food is amazing. So we get to eat a lot of different kinds of meat, including one of my favourites, chicken hearts (don’t judge until you try it – it’s delicious!) By the time we had finished there, everyone was ready for a nap, haha!
To be honest I am not really trying hard enough and I hate myself for it. I am still trying to lose the same three kilos I have put on over the holidays. I really want to be consistent and at the same time not be paranoid about what is happening around me, what others are eating or cooking, and I don’t like saying no to desserts. Is this lack of will? I am not saying I want to binge eat on everything under the sun…. I guess I am still trying to find a balance for myself. It takes times and it is not easy.
But we keep pressing on. It’s a very discouraging, slow process sometimes. But the hope of success renew itself every time we slip up.
I wish it was as easy as taking diet pills! And NO, I am not even tempted to go down that road
I have to keep looking back and focus on what I have achieved already! I am running for goodness sake! Never in my life I ran before! This time last year I was 10kgs heavier, not doing any form of exercise and not caring about how many times I had McDonalds in a week
Progress is the KEY word here. We often keep focusing on what we are not achieving. Maybe that’s human nature, but we have to purposely make a decision to celebrate how far we have come.
Also, I want to find an eating plan to make life easy. With a full time job, three kids, a husband, a running partner, I don’t really have a lot of time to fiddle with a lot of stuff.
So today I am researching, reading a lot, thinking.